Good afternoon dear peeps!

 Hello there!

I am happy. I am feeling a lot better. Sometimes I get anxiety for a while but when it's gone again, ain't no other better feeling than that! Except being in love... and the love is reciprocated by the guy. That's priceless. Amazing! Wonderful! It feels like the world is your oyster and nothing can stop you. YES. It's a really good feeling... 

Music helps, reading and writing helps. Also take a nap, when you wake up, take a caffeine pill, drink a little Pepsi max and everything will be better, if not straight away, at least after a little while. I had a little anxiety today and my friend who is a senior missionary here called me and we talked for 23 minutes. She is so smart and kind.

LOVE. It's the best!

LOVE for that special someone, LOVE for your friends and family...

LOVE for your pets who are a part of your family.

My boy cat's legs are really bad and he can't use his back legs so much, he has maybe arthritis and I will take him to a vet to check up on him in a few weeks maybe. I am so sad but I know he has been a lovely cat to me and if he needs to cross the Rainbow Bridge and go back to heaven, that is ok. Because then he won't be sad or in pain anymore. But he is still a pretty strong and happy kitty. He just keeps on getting around mainly by dragging himself forward with his front paws. My baby! His sister Brianna and him have not been close. They don't really like each other, So she will be okay with him being gone. Plus if I marry a guy who is allergic to cats, Brianna can go to my parents. My mom and dad loves my cats.

I am moving to a new place in the middle of March! YAY! :)

More later...

Merry November :)

 Hello...

On the first of November, i.e. on Friday, it snowed a lot. Also, that was when I started listening to Christmas music. I don't want to listen to it too much though, so I don't get sick of it before December! lol. I love Christmas music. Here is my ultimate Christmas music list on Spotify:

Christmas deluxe

I am doing OK, by the way. We had a huge fall out with the missionaries... It is a long story and I don't like it. Most days I cry because the missionaries have been literally shunning me. I mean, I have apologized and changed and tried to stay away from them as much as possible, still they are mean to me. Yes, I said it: They are mean to me. 

I visited Utah from the 13th of August until the 16th of September. It was SO great! 

The RMs are sure a lot nicer and HONEST and kinder than the current missionaries.

Just saying.

Eventually, they will go home and I will not miss the current missionaries. They don't speak to me, they don't even answer when I talk to them. Only the sisters in the first ward are nice. Then I have a lot of missionary friends around Finland, still serving their missions and still my friends. They don't think I should be shunned. They are still my friends. 

The sisters in the second ward look so angry and bitter. I am flabbergasted how they can be like that.

I kind of feel sorry for them, they think they are doing the right thing. It is sickening too... It's so hypocritical. Seriously, it is. I think they have a lot left to learn. I think they think they know everything because they are 20 years old and 20 year old people tend to think they know everything.

I am 44 and I don't know a lot. 

I just know that the way they are behaving is NOT Christlike...

Enough said.

All I have done is tried to help and support them. I am always friends with the missionaries. I always am happy to see them and to laugh and joke. Apparently the sisters took my friendliness for something else and ASSUMED I am a BAD person. How nice. They are not very nice.

They don't know me.

I have kept in touch with a few missionaries back in Utah and a few still on their mission here. I don't care if it's against the rules or whatever, You do not decide what I should do. There are a lot of missionaries that are sympathetic towards my situation. I am so grateful for them.

My mom said that it is time for me to move away from Tampere. Some of the church members here are and have been mean for most my life, in a way or another. They really want me to move to Jakobstad. Or wherever, just away. I agree now, I will gladly move... My mom and dad and my friends in the Jakobstad ward/branch (at church there) are so much nicer and the ward is like a family.

I will do my best to move SOMEWHERE. 

I have been having a lot more pain in my legs and I went to a nerve pain examination on Wednesday. My childhood friend's mom came with me. They are such a nice family. They have helped me a lot and they have always been supportive of me.

Sorry for the rant. 

A true Cinderella story

 Good morning!

I went on a cruise for new year's with my friend.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about how my life REALLY IS a version of Cinderella...

My name is Cindarella. I was put into an orphanage when I was a tiny baby. At three months old I was adoted to the Santonen family, my parents are the best! They are my best friends. I grew up in a secure and loving home. 

At school I was bullied, ten years until I snapped and needed to go to the hospital for eight months when I was 17. I got ill on my mini-mission in Jyväskylä in July of 1997 when I was 17 and I stayed eight (!) months at the hospital recovering from my illness.

I came back to high school, passed the finals and finished school well and graduated.

Ever since I have been sick I have been looked down upon, belittled and ridiculed etc. Bullied at my first (and last) job, bullied at university (not so much) and especially at church. I survived. People may think I am week and complaining a lot, they don't know my whole story, they only see the surface.

Doctors ask me questions like:

"Do you know how to use a computer?"

"Are you able to read in English?"

"Do you live in a care facility?"

The answers to those are: "yes. yes. and no." To clarify, I have a blog since 2007 and have designed the templates etc that are on my many blogs. I am also able to use zoom and other stuff on my laptop. I studied English at the University of Stockholm for 12 (!) years on/off. I think they would have thrown me out of the English department if I wouldn't have been able to read and write English... Just saying. And I do NOT live in a care facility. I have my own apartment that I take care of. I have two cats that are my furry babies. I even take care of them! WOW. Unbelievable to some, I know. :D hahhah.

Also, I play the piano and sing OK.

As was Cinderella, I have been belittled, bullied and discriminated. Yet I have persisted and kept up my hope, love and faith. I have not given up on my dreams. I am not stupid. I feel sorry for you if you think that.  I wake up each morning with gratitude and a smile. I feel sorry if you don't. 

I have a few friends that do see my worth, I am grateful for them. And even if I would be completely unintelligent and uneducated, it wouldn't make me less worthy or wouldn't diminish my worth as a person. I try to learn new things. It is not impossible for me to learn new things, I am sorry if some people see problems that are simply not there. Maybe they should get glasses, both physical glasses as well as emotional, mental and spiritual, intellectual...

The day will come when I will be vindicated. I don't need anyone's approval or permission to be myself. I have confidence in myself. I am not ashamed of myself, I am not sorry for being me. I am so lucky and blessed.

That was my rant. More later!

Good afternoon from Finland! :)

 Hey there! 

I don't remember if I told you guys that I have severe depression and used to have really bad anxiety for years. This year I suddenly got a lot better. In February/March I usually need to go to the mental hospital for a few days at least and on top of that I have spent weeks, if not months at home alone with my cats most days and lied on my couch and scrolled hours on end on my phone. I was really in a bad state. I was afraid of going outside, I had zero energy, I cried and had a lot of anxiety. I did not clean my home a lot, I felt I could not do anything. It was the bottom of my life so far... 

Then I met the new missionaries (and some who had been here since earlier) and one Sunday I asked for a blessing from the elders. Slowly from that moment on I started to feel a lot better. I went outside more! I cleaned more! I got a lot more energy! I lost 10 kilograms! :) I am so happy I found these friends. I am so grateful for them. In another blog I write more about the missionaries... 

https://swefinnmissionarybonusmom.blogspot.com/

I really do not know what exactly happened. I just know that I feel alive again and a lot happier. 

Maybe people started praying for me more, maybe I believed a little extra in the power of the blessing I got, maybe the missionaries who became my bonus children really helped me get out of my bad depression by helping me in many ways and allowing me to help them. Because if I can't help anyone or if no one wants me to help, I feel pretty useless and I do not feel appreciated and I just slip into a really dark place...

THANK YOU MISSIONARIES <3 

I am so grateful. I skipped the "going to the hospital in the spring" -part of my year and that is so valuable to me. I am so happy... Also, because I am spending my time a lot more with the missionaries I see their good example, I want to be better, it helps me to progress. I would have probably continued being a depressed crazy cat-lady with no energy forever, or for a very long time at least. My anxiety is completely gone! :)  I am sure it will come back maybe sometimes at least to visit but I am just so happy it is gone right now :)

More later!

Good morning! :)

 Hi there! 

It is a lot easier to blog about my life in general than about books, I am sorry. I have my good old trusted book blog too but I have been in an awful reading slump. Plus I have started knitting instead. I could listen to audiobooks at the same time but sometimes it is difficult to concentrate...

I usually just listen to music or the radio during my knitting moments.

I knit a lot at night when I can not sleep or at the church on Sundays or at the activities. A little mean old lady at church asked if I am not going to get that scarf done soon? She saw that I was knitting it two weeks in a row... She was pretty mean. I knit very rarely. I am not fast, I am not good at it and I am doing my best. Mean people do not have patience lol.

I still feel a lot better nowadays, even if I feel a little down I very soon pick myself up, which would have been imposible a year ago... A year ago I was at the hospital 11-14 of March. I had bad anxiety. I was supposed to move back to my hometown. I did not move and that was a VERY good thing.

My missionary friends visited me in the hospital last year. Elder Holm and elder Phelps, sister Sanders and sister Nyland. Really lovely humans. I am so grateful. The missionaries have visited me many times when I have been in the hospital but let's not get into that, wrong blog lol. :D

It is Barbie's birthday today! (wrong blog again lol)

Have a good day! :)

Something about life at the moment

 Hi...

I recently started another blog. The subject there is missionarywork. It has been read a lot.

My life outside of that has been very interesting to say the least.

 I really was not feeling okay or like I was hyper active and very happy for about two weeks. First I thought it was my painkillers making me high, nope! It was just life and the feels I sometimes experience. They usually come and go, but this time my happy mood has persevered even though everything in my life is NOT all peaches and flowers etc. I have found many ways to deal with my anxiety and honestly I have not had a lot of anxiety for almost a month. :) My friends have helped me a lot.

I am actually amazed how I still can be this happy! I smile each day a lot, laugh and mostly think very happy thoughts. I am a new person. I also have become more perky and do not need as many naps as before and have a lot more energy. I have lost 10 kilograms! I felt like I was eating all the time but apparently not lol. I am happy about that too.

I think something has changed that used to bother me a LOT. I just left the problem in the past and I must say a few friends have helped me leave that thing behind me, for which I am forever grateful. I used to lie in bed all day for weeks on end just scrolling through social media. A MIRACLE happened. I am so happy I feel a lot better. Some people or situations still trigger a negative response or emotion but I do not care so much, because every time I feel really good right afterwards. There are very few things in my life right now that can make me really severly depressed anymore!

I was afraid of getting a psychosis for those two weeks :( some feelings can SEEM like a psychosis or like you are not yourself... That is what happened to me lol. I hate and love when my feelings go crazy and my mind follows. It is not possible to pull the breaks, but I managed it. I just calmed a little down, and now I feel pretty normal. "Normal" for me is not "normal" for everyone lol. I try to be normal but it really does not work for me. I am at least happy that I am becoming an adult now at the age of almost 43 lol.

Well, there are some of my thoughts. I need to try to read today-...

TA! ;)

At the end of 2022... :)

 Good morning!

Sorry I haven't written in over a year... A lot has happened lol. Good and bad.

I had to go to the hospital in the spring and now in the fall... I stayed almost a month now in the fall at the hospital. It is a good hospital, in Sastamala, a little farther away from my home but very good quality. Very nice nurses and good food. 

I was supposed to move in the summer but I canceled my move in the spring... I felt like it is not good for me and I really love my home in Tampere. My cats also love living here... I have many friends and a lot of hobbies and things to do every day. 

I have continued collecting Barbies and ponies etc. My collection is ever growing :D

I am happy today :) It's a little before 5 am and I woke up so early because I fell asleep before 8 pm. Also, my cats were hungry... They are always hungry hahhah. I will nap later, so it's okay. Yesterday my friend from church came and cleaned my home with me for two hours, it was nice.

I am participating in nanowrimo, which is a writing thing in November... I have started a little already. I am writing on scrivener and of course these blogs of mine. As usual, I also try to keep up with my regular journals too... a lot of writing lol.

More later! :)

Early morning thoughts

 Good morning! 

I know, it's Saturday morning, it's a little past four a.m. here and I can't sleep even though I should be sleeping... I woke up with a stomach ache from yesterday's burrito lol. It made my stomach a bit upset. It usually doesn't do that, but it's okay. It was a good burrito. I like burritos. 

So, this update comes a bit earlier. I was going to try to update you once a month, but I just got the inspiration to write now. There is nothing I can do about that. LOL. I slept five hours, I fell asleep really early... I will soon go back to bed.

I've been pretty happy lately. Life is good. Sometimes I get anxiety etc. but it always does pass sooner or later. I have good medicine. I haven't seen my shrink in more than six months, they are very busy obviously. Feels like the health care system here in Tampere isn't working quite as it should. At least not the mental health care... It is awful. I hope everyone who is suffering can cope. There's always the hospital... But it gets crowded. It's really horrible.

Anyway... I have been busy and meeting friends, going to church and writing in my journals, reading, watching netflix etc. :) I'm happy with my life right now. Not anything missing... LOL. I know, I'm single, but I am not worried about that. Not at all. It will all work out. It doesn't get better if I worry about it. 

More later! :)

August Update...

 Hello there! 

What's up? ;) 

I visited my parents for nearly two weeks in July/August. My cats came with me and we had a lot of fun. I swam *once* in the ocean, ate at Kotipizza twice: Kanalankku pizza (Chicken pizza with avocado and feta cheese, chili sauce and some green stuff lol). It is my favorite pizza... They have a great service at lunch there: One can drink as much as one wants, and the sodas have additional flavors to be added if so wished: Strawberry, vanilla, lime and raspberry. (I'm not sure about the raspberry one... don't remember lol) I also ate once at McDonald's and once at a lovely café: Skorpan, near where my parents live. I also went to church, met my cousin and aunties and uncle. I love my family. I also met my biological sister. We talked for two hours. She is so wonderful, I love my siblings. They found me in 2014 on facebook... I got two elder brothers and two elder sisters, all at once :) I'm so happy they found me. 

I've decided to try to update this blog at least once a month. Let's hope for the best...

I've been pretty okay. Happy most of the time. Lots to do. :) I have two jobs, we call them Callings in our church. Before I had no job, or like only a very small one. Now I'm the singles aged 31+ representative in my ward and the counselor in the women's organisation: Relief society. It is sooo fun! :) I really like that I can help people. It is so nice. I feel that I am not useless. I can make a difference. 

I have also been quite active on the International singles aged 31-55 group online. We have meetings on zoom on Thursdays, Fridays and Sundays. It's for all the 31-55 year old singles from the church in Europe. The program is called "Gathered In" and is not a dating platform, only to talk about our faith, find friends and have fun.

I love life right now. I have music to listen to, books, two lovely cats, a roof over my head, food and youtube premium lol :D There are so many things to be grateful for... If I sometimes get depressed or get anxiety it is basically because of my brain, an unbalance in the brain. I don't decide to get depressed, it doesn't help when people say : Just smile! or something. It is so annoying. These people haven't got any perspective! :P

I'm listening to my favorite spotify list:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/35OArLtspCXsDFAAt65YRl?si=d9d63e7322114349

It's like my "best of the best" :D

I'm quite happy today :) I got new earphones yesterday evening: Airpods. They are called Happy plugs (Stockholm), designed in Sweden <3 Which is suitable, since I lived there for 12 years lol. They are gold and pink colored. 

There they are... Aren't they beautiful? :)

My new hobby: Listening to music from Spotify on my laptop via my airpods :P Lovely! 

Have a lovely weekend! :)

TA! :)

Life update July 2021

 Hello!

How is everyone doing? We're having a long heatwave here in Finland... It's *interesting* lol :D It is quite hard to do anything... you get hot and sweaty real easily. It is a bit bothering, but I will hopefully manage. I'm soon getting a cooler/fan. That's really good.

I've kept up with my bullet journals, journals and other notebooks, most of the time at least. I often write a to do -list for the day, not always though. I have so many notebooks on many different subjects. Each subject has its own notebook lol. 

My cats are okay. They just turned 10 years, and sometimes a little tired or anxious and meowing a lot.... But pretty okay. They are my babies. Very fluffy... I didn't realize really how fluffy they would be when I first got them in 2011. LOL

I have been listening to a lot of Swedish radio. There are a few radio stations on ilikeradio.se that I really like. They have many different kind of stations. Also I have found some nice radio stations in the UK. Of course, there is radio Suomi pop in Finland that I kinda like.

Here is a link to the Swedish radio page:

https://www.ilikeradio.se/rixfm/

I have listened to Rix morron Zoo since 2001/2002 when I lived in Sweden. I moved there in 2001 so I found that radio station pretty quick. I stayed in Sweden until 2012. I moved there in January 2001 and back home to Finland in December 2012 so it's 12 years. That is quite a long time. I liked it pretty well.

I've been pretty healthy.Not much anxiety or depressing feelings. Mostly happy and glad. Now in the summertime I have been outside a lot. Sitting in the park alone or with friends. Reading, listening to music, taking pictures of my dolls etc.

More later!

TA!

It's BACK! :)

 Hello dear readers...

I have managed to wake my computer up from "almost death". That is excellent, so happy about it. Now I have no excuse to not blog anymore... I will try my best. I have been updating my bookish blog most often, these other so called personal blogs have been less prioritized, I am so sorry. I'll try and become better at blogging again. I used to be so good lol :)

I have been in a better mood, in better health etc. My problem nowadays is my sore back and other somatic problems. My voice is still gone. I have a really hard time walking. I have a walker outside, at home I can get around pretty okay. 

I have spent a lot of time on Discord lol, I have a lot of new friends there, they are so lovely and nice.

I have to admit, I don't tell most of my friends so much about my life anymore, some of them are getting on my nerves lol. I feel like it is best to keep clear of some of them. I do not need their kind of negativity in my life. They are sometimes so rude to me. But it's okay, I am focusing on my Good Friends :)

I have started ordering my groceries home, because of my bad back. One thing that makes me upset is when my friends tell me to "just go outside". It's not that easy. Even if my back would be perfect, I have probably some kind of mental block, and the more people tell me to go outside, the harder it becomes... And IF/WHEN I go, they'll expect me to go more often. It is really hard. I know, they think it is because I am lazy and crazy. I do not care what they think. I will decide what I do. 

Today I will probably hang around Discord and read :)

I'm BACK! :P

Hi there!

I have been gone.... Because my computer is almost done. It is giving up its ghost so to speak, lol, that is it is almost broken... Too bad, so sad. It has been a good and faithful means and instrument of creativity and inspiration. So sorry. I think I might buy a new one next year or at Christmas sales, when everything is so cheap. Also, my bed broke lol. It will be replaced (probably) by a queen sized soft bed. LOVELY! I can not wait! My Mom is probably giving it to me for Christmas. She is so kind. My old bed is over 23 years old lol. REALLY OLD. It never came with me to Sweden, It stayed in Finland. While I had a few different beds in Sweden. My favorite bed was bough in Sweden. Bigger than this old one. Softer, just perfect. Miss it. It broke too, a few years ago. Thank goodness I have my old bed, and underneath there is a "box bed" and I have been sleeping in it for the past few days, since my bed broke.

In case you are worried, no, I have not gotten Covid or any other dangerous disease. I have had a little flu symptoms now and then but they go by quickly. I am truly happy that I have not gotten sick. It is a great blessing.

Today my "support-person" is coming to visit me, we are going to clean my home and organize things. I am listening to Rix MorronZoo, a Swedish radio morning program. It is lovely. I have listened to it since 2001/2002. I feel like I know some of the radio journalists, I have been listening to their voices for soon 20 years! It is a long time. Thank goodness my native tongue is Swedish, so I can understand this lol...

I am happy. More later!

better late than never

Hi 

Excuse me for my prolonged absence. 

I have been busy. Also, sometimes very addicted to my phone... I'm trying to use my phone less. I love social media and texting friends. I have nonetheless read a lot. 30 books so far this year! That's amazing! My goal is to read 40 books this year. I am 3 books ahead of schedule! Incredible! This has never happened before! 

Music has been very important and comforting, inspiring and very useful. Almost always when I have anxiety, music helps. It's awesome. I have so much favorite music, when people ask me what I like, I'm like lol. I will have to write a little book about how my music taste has evolved. Yes! Excellent idea! 

I have started writing more in my good old journals, it's nice. I have many bullet journals, regular journals, a prayer journal, a gratitude journal and journals in three different languages. Then I have my 10 + blogs! I have a lot of hobbies! Still, I sometimes get anxiety, I don't think there is a reason, I just have depression. 😢 but nowadays I feel a lot better. 

More later! 

Summer In Jakobstad City

Hi there! 

On Thursday I arrived here at my parent's home. We haven't been doing a lot. I have been very tired all the time... but it's okay. I have been reading, watching tv and movies with my parents. Listening to Spotify on my tablet. Napping lol... my medication is being switched up, and it makes me extra tired. 😿 and to make matters even worse, my cats are not with me on this trip. But I will go home on Monday and they will arrive at my home later the same day. I love my cats. 

Tomorrow is Sunday. My friend from down under is calling me at 9 am. He is a very good friend. He knows my parents so he will get the chance to talk with them too. It's going to be fun. Also, at 10.00 am my church ward in Tampere is sending the Sunday worship live via YouTube. We are going to watch it together. It's supposed to be a little rainy tomorrow, so I might stay inside all day...

More later! 

Summertime...

Hi!

Just wanted to drop by and say...

Life is good! I am really happy today. Music lifts my spirits, books make me happy and friends keep me on track. I have so many things to be grateful for. Here are five things I am especially grateful for tonight:

Music

Books

Friends

My Faith

My cats 

In four minutes my Zoom! meeting with my church single people aged 30+ is starting... Gotta go!

TA! 

happiness is...

Hello there!

I am back. With another bit and piece of text, which I really hope will not only be a little piece lol

I have been busy... I have been in a reading slump... I have been active (from home lol)

First of all. Where do I start? Hmm.. Difficult. Tricky lol

The single adults in my church have a group on Facebook (Finland). There I have been inactive and on the sidelines for... Ten years (ish). I have been very reluctant, very reluctant indeed, to participate and be active in the 30+ single group in our church. I have maybe been scared of feeling old, feeling like everyone there is SUPER desperate and/or just very old and/or boring... I was very prejudiced. I was a dork. Of the bad kind. A very influenced person. Influenced by my notions and opinions and expectations. Needless to say, I have now seen the error of my ways. I have "seen the light" if you will. I have had an epiphany... and so on and so fort etc, lol Sooo... I started by attending a few online virtual meetings with these people. They are so awesome! I am SO happy I found them! Soon I found myself attending every virtual meeting online and now I have become a "regular" at the evening discussions, every evening at 9 pm. It is THE BEST! I am so happy. Yeah. That is all.

My reading has suffered from my busy social online life... I have hardly picked up a book in weeks! It is awful. Tonight it will change and once I am ready for bed, I am going to read until I fall asleep. This is a promise.

My life has become something sooo awesome! Thank you COVID-19, thank you Skype and Facebook, Instagram and whatsapp. I love you, dear apps, you are awesome. I am happy. Even my spirituality has soared. Everything has come into sharper focus. I am so happy.

More later!

Hello.

Hi.

I don't remember if I have told you about my two new hobbies...

Last Fall I started taking piano lessons! Indeed!
This year I started Finnish sign-language studies! YaY!!

Now that Corona has struck, I'm doing my studies at home. It's almost more fun! Almost... LOL

I have taken a lot of naps, written in my journals and bullet journals, read and listened to audiobooks, watched shows and movies... Today I slept most of the day until 1 p.m. lol That's kinda boring... But it beats having anxiety, which I do tend to have often. When I sleep, I don't feel anxiety. And when I am not sleepy, I don't get depressed. The benefits of napping are great! Honestly.

Today I have been planning in my mind, to blog and write in my journals, maybe organize and clean my library etc. I have about 100+ dolls and 100+ My Little Ponies to put on display. Also I own over 500 books. Sooo... There's enough of thing to do. A lot.
'
More later!

Hello

Hi

I am amazed at the people outside... The park is very busy. It is supposed to be dangerous out there!

Oh, in case you are wondering what I am talking about, it is CORONA, or COVID 19... The Virus.

I have been at home all day every day. On Monday I had to go to the store and yesterday I went to the doctor. Other than that I have been at home. People have awfully short memories! There they are! In the park, doing stuff! :P Well, They may not know it yet but they will have a rude awakening...

The government tells us to self-isolate and avoid social contacts? Finns usually: Stays home. Finns now: "WE GOTTA PACK THE PARK WITH PEOPLE" so... yeah... That is how it goes... Feeling sorry for those children and parents who have no intention of staying one meter from each other...

'Nuff ranting...

I just find it disturbing.

Hmm... Today I have

1. eaten too much chocolate

2. taken a nap

3. read a little

I am ok. Not on top of  the world but not in the depths of despair either...

More later! :)

Happy Leap-Day! 29th of February 2020...

Hello there!

Happy Leap-Day!

Since this day appears only once every four years, I thought I have to write something, so that it will be remembered. lol. At least I can look back on this and other blogs and go: Look! I wrote some weird/good stuff on leap-day 2020! lol HAHA! I do not know if this will be weird nor good... You can be the judge of that. You are welcome. HIHI!

I just woke up from a nap. Maybe that is why I write in such a weird way... It is a mystery... Today I have been at home all day, just reading, listening to an audiobook and eating, listening to music and writing in my Bullet Journals etc. BOOORING! No, just kidding! I am not so easily bored! I am almost never bored! That is a good quality lol...

Tomorrow is Sunday, my favorite day of the week.

Did I tell you, I am starting to study the Finnish sign-language? Yes, I started in January. My friend Taru asked me to join her on the course and it is seriously sooo fun and interesting etc. It is just wonderful! I am happy. We have a nice teacher and fun classmates. I also like spending time with Taru, she is such a nice person. Did you know, she is an author? :) That is impressive... We became friends on Discord. We have a writer/reader group there and also twice a month a reading party. We meet and read together for several hours. Quietly, everyone their own book. Then when we are done, we each tell each other a little about the book(s) we are reading. I have gotten out of my eternal slump thanks to those parties.

Yesterday I organized and re-dressed etc some of my dolls. I might continue that today... :)

More later! :)

Happy Friendship Week!

Hello there!

On Friday it's Friendship day here in Finland. No, we do not really celebrate Valentine's Day in all its romantic, pink and bubbly glory, as they do in some other countries. Sorry! Some of us like to celebrate romantic love too, but me, I celebrate Friendship. And my friend's Birthday lol. So yeah. I do not care so much about the other kind of love -friendship love is enough. I am happy no guy has asked me on a date or something. It would be sad... for them, when I say no, and I don't want to be mean. I just need to be firm sometimes. Yeah.

I know, the new me is the complete opposite to the old me hihi. I used to run after a lot of guys... I was constantly crushing on some dude or another. No. I figured out that my life is about me, not them. They may come and go as they please. I do not care. I'm the one who is staying.

Sorry, not the things I was going to write about today... Actually, I never do have a plan of what I should write, I just "go with the flow" Today I am at home, because I still have the flu. Despite of feeling like a trash bag, I feel a little creative. Hence, this post.

Now my buzz died. Sorry guys! I'll be back! :)