Merry November :)

 Hello...

On the first of November, i.e. on Friday, it snowed a lot. Also, that was when I started listening to Christmas music. I don't want to listen to it too much though, so I don't get sick of it before December! lol. I love Christmas music. Here is my ultimate Christmas music list on Spotify:

Christmas deluxe

I am doing OK, by the way. We had a huge fall out with the missionaries... It is a long story and I don't like it. Most days I cry because the missionaries have been literally shunning me. I mean, I have apologized and changed and tried to stay away from them as much as possible, still they are mean to me. Yes, I said it: They are mean to me. 

I visited Utah from the 13th of August until the 16th of September. It was SO great! 

The RMs are sure a lot nicer and HONEST and kinder than the current missionaries.

Just saying.

Eventually, they will go home and I will not miss the current missionaries. They don't speak to me, they don't even answer when I talk to them. Only the sisters in the first ward are nice. Then I have a lot of missionary friends around Finland, still serving their missions and still my friends. They don't think I should be shunned. They are still my friends. 

The sisters in the second ward look so angry and bitter. I am flabbergasted how they can be like that.

I kind of feel sorry for them, they think they are doing the right thing. It is sickening too... It's so hypocritical. Seriously, it is. I think they have a lot left to learn. I think they think they know everything because they are 20 years old and 20 year old people tend to think they know everything.

I am 44 and I don't know a lot. 

I just know that the way they are behaving is NOT Christlike...

Enough said.

All I have done is tried to help and support them. I am always friends with the missionaries. I always am happy to see them and to laugh and joke. Apparently the sisters took my friendliness for something else and ASSUMED I am a BAD person. How nice. They are not very nice.

They don't know me.

I have kept in touch with a few missionaries back in Utah and a few still on their mission here. I don't care if it's against the rules or whatever, You do not decide what I should do. There are a lot of missionaries that are sympathetic towards my situation. I am so grateful for them.

My mom said that it is time for me to move away from Tampere. Some of the church members here are and have been mean for most my life, in a way or another. They really want me to move to Jakobstad. Or wherever, just away. I agree now, I will gladly move... My mom and dad and my friends in the Jakobstad ward/branch (at church there) are so much nicer and the ward is like a family.

I will do my best to move SOMEWHERE. 

I have been having a lot more pain in my legs and I went to a nerve pain examination on Wednesday. My childhood friend's mom came with me. They are such a nice family. They have helped me a lot and they have always been supportive of me.

Sorry for the rant.