Early morning thoughts

 Good morning! 

I know, it's Saturday morning, it's a little past four a.m. here and I can't sleep even though I should be sleeping... I woke up with a stomach ache from yesterday's burrito lol. It made my stomach a bit upset. It usually doesn't do that, but it's okay. It was a good burrito. I like burritos. 

So, this update comes a bit earlier. I was going to try to update you once a month, but I just got the inspiration to write now. There is nothing I can do about that. LOL. I slept five hours, I fell asleep really early... I will soon go back to bed.

I've been pretty happy lately. Life is good. Sometimes I get anxiety etc. but it always does pass sooner or later. I have good medicine. I haven't seen my shrink in more than six months, they are very busy obviously. Feels like the health care system here in Tampere isn't working quite as it should. At least not the mental health care... It is awful. I hope everyone who is suffering can cope. There's always the hospital... But it gets crowded. It's really horrible.

Anyway... I have been busy and meeting friends, going to church and writing in my journals, reading, watching netflix etc. :) I'm happy with my life right now. Not anything missing... LOL. I know, I'm single, but I am not worried about that. Not at all. It will all work out. It doesn't get better if I worry about it. 

More later! :)

August Update...

 Hello there! 

What's up? ;) 

I visited my parents for nearly two weeks in July/August. My cats came with me and we had a lot of fun. I swam *once* in the ocean, ate at Kotipizza twice: Kanalankku pizza (Chicken pizza with avocado and feta cheese, chili sauce and some green stuff lol). It is my favorite pizza... They have a great service at lunch there: One can drink as much as one wants, and the sodas have additional flavors to be added if so wished: Strawberry, vanilla, lime and raspberry. (I'm not sure about the raspberry one... don't remember lol) I also ate once at McDonald's and once at a lovely café: Skorpan, near where my parents live. I also went to church, met my cousin and aunties and uncle. I love my family. I also met my biological sister. We talked for two hours. She is so wonderful, I love my siblings. They found me in 2014 on facebook... I got two elder brothers and two elder sisters, all at once :) I'm so happy they found me. 

I've decided to try to update this blog at least once a month. Let's hope for the best...

I've been pretty okay. Happy most of the time. Lots to do. :) I have two jobs, we call them Callings in our church. Before I had no job, or like only a very small one. Now I'm the singles aged 31+ representative in my ward and the counselor in the women's organisation: Relief society. It is sooo fun! :) I really like that I can help people. It is so nice. I feel that I am not useless. I can make a difference. 

I have also been quite active on the International singles aged 31-55 group online. We have meetings on zoom on Thursdays, Fridays and Sundays. It's for all the 31-55 year old singles from the church in Europe. The program is called "Gathered In" and is not a dating platform, only to talk about our faith, find friends and have fun.

I love life right now. I have music to listen to, books, two lovely cats, a roof over my head, food and youtube premium lol :D There are so many things to be grateful for... If I sometimes get depressed or get anxiety it is basically because of my brain, an unbalance in the brain. I don't decide to get depressed, it doesn't help when people say : Just smile! or something. It is so annoying. These people haven't got any perspective! :P

I'm listening to my favorite spotify list:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/35OArLtspCXsDFAAt65YRl?si=d9d63e7322114349

It's like my "best of the best" :D

I'm quite happy today :) I got new earphones yesterday evening: Airpods. They are called Happy plugs (Stockholm), designed in Sweden <3 Which is suitable, since I lived there for 12 years lol. They are gold and pink colored. 

There they are... Aren't they beautiful? :)

My new hobby: Listening to music from Spotify on my laptop via my airpods :P Lovely! 

Have a lovely weekend! :)

TA! :)