Feelings, nothing more than feelings...

Hi!

Today was a good but though day... I went to Church and after the first meeting I went with my Dad to my friends' home in Kangasala. We ate tacos, drank Coca-Cola and had ice-cream for dessert. Yum! There were other guests than us there too. It was very nice. I just was very tired. But they have two cats, they are lovely. I've been friends with this family for many years and they are my dear friends.

I've been stressed lately and today I got almost a panic attack after our visit. Thank goodness my friend A was there to help me. She is a good friend and has always been very supportive of me and my health issues. I hope I can help her too.

My dad has been visiting me for three weeks and I have been taking care of him. Made food, helped him to put his shoes on etc. I've practically been his nurse, cook and cleaning lady. ☺ It's been very fun. But it has also been a bit tough.

To top it all, I have had worries for one of my good friends. 💖 Thank goodness I've got my cats to bring me comfort. I've been praying and thinking about things that I can do for my friends, helping others is the best way to feel better.

I've also been cleaning and organisingmy home, putting all my books in better order etc. I feel much better now. Every evening I get a bit distressed but I have a good medicine that I can take if I feel really bad. These last nights I've had to take that medicine every night.

Well, other than that, it's going swimmingly. ☺

That's all.

Hello, hello, hello!

Dear readers...

Here is a short list of some of the things that I have started this new year with.

1. My Little Pony : Friendship is Magic

2. Diaries

3. RuPaul's Drag Race

4. Coloring in my adult coloring books

5. Frasier

6. Listening to music

7. Family Guy

8. Sudoku

9. Facebook 😢

10. Old and New Friends 😊

That's all.

Howdy!

Hey there!

Newsflash :

I have started to collect My Little Pony toys! I'm sooo excited about it! A few months ago I sold a My Little Pony small handbag and got 40 euros for it! WoW! Nowadays I collect both G1 and G4... I have even started a new blog about my My Little Ponies...

More later!

How we start to like new music...

Hi there!

Sorry, that I haven't written in many, many months...

Today I got a package from my dear musician friend: The Jonna. We have known each other many years and she helped me once when I was really in trouble. Thank you, Jonna!

She sent me her new album. As soon as I could, I put it in the CD-player and listened to it two times through. I have a theory of how we find new favorite songs. It was like when I was a teenager and always listened a few times through Céline Dion's and Mariah Carey's CD's when I got hold of them, and became familiar with the sounds and words. Then, within a few hours/days, I would find my absolute favorites. It took a while to take it all in. I haven't bought many new CD's these past few years but I do still love them. Plus my stereo has the best sound.

This new album from Jonna is called "Sound Mind". It's a very good, almost like a soundtrack to my life right now. These words move me and they are very well written. I'm so proud of you, Jonna.My favorites so far are: "Still breathng" and "Smile". Also "Wedding Night" touched my heart in a special way.

I need to go to the store and buy all of Jonna's albums. I almost always listen to her music on Spotify.

Thank you, Jonna!
Love, Cindy

Awakenings Thursday - Friday, 17th to 18th of December 2014

Hey!

Tonight I watched an amazing movie, called "Awakenings". It made me appreciate life so much more. There was a time in my life when I lived in a mental hospital for 8 months. It was in 1997-1998 when I was 17. My dad always says that I always talk about my time in the mental institution as it was some kind of army. Well, in some ways it was.

Here's a part of my history.

I was bullied in school. From the first time I stepped in class and ten years on. The only reason they stopped bullying me was that after the last summer I suffered from a psychosis. I was 17 and served a mini mission for the church. I have later come to an understanding that both having been bullied for ten years and the mini mission contributed to my break down.

In the hospital I suffered from both mental illness and from side effects from the many different types of medicines they gave me. I gained 30 kilos in the hospital. I suffered from extra pyramidal syndrome. That is where "Awakenings" steps in. I had many of the problems and symptoms that the patients in the story also had. Of course it was based on a real story.

More later!

Tuesday, 9th of December 2014. My NameDay

He Is The Gift

Hello! :P

Hi there!

I'm BAAACK!!! :P

Today is the first of December. Duh! So, I have three calenders, one with Finnish Salmiakki, two with chocolate :) They are nice. My cats were so exited when I got my new computer table (for use on the floor, in bed etc.) and the box it came in! They do not care what's in the box, the BOX is the gift ;) My cats circled around the box, tried to scratch their way into it (it's rectangular and MUCH too small) and played with the plastic that had been around it. Cats are precious. FYI: I only have two cats, I'm not (YET) a crazy cat-lady ;)

More later!!! :)