Happy thoughts...

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That topic was meant to be ironic.

I feel tired all the time now. I wake up too early. I need coke light to stay awake. I take caffeine pills sometime. Life sucks. Big time. I love that old love song "The Rose", where it says: "Sometimes love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed". Because that's just what this stupid love's gone and done with me this time. And it did involve a razor -two times. Mr. O, that stupid canuck, he's NOTHING compared to this. He's a little pidgeon fart. This one's a freaking hurricane... I didn't bleed last time. I just scratched off the surface. Well. I have my doctor. Bosse. And my curator. And my Ward, if it gets that bad.

Bye.

More later.

September 2.nd

Hello again.

My very personal own Hogwarts in this world is located on Stadshagen in the city of Stockholm. Don't think it's in any way in the suburbs, because it ain't. It is in a red brick building, on the fourth floor and is thus very abtly named "Ward 4". There we have the most wonderful people working for the healthcare in the entire world, if you ask me. And now most of them are going to be transferred down to Ward 2, so "next time" I'm going there... Fredrick is working on Ward 5 now, so I won't see HIM anymore, but anyways. There's always the Rock, the Hazelnut, the one who looks like my uncle and mr. M with post-ironic-humour... Once I said to him: "mr. M, DARLING, they're letting me out!" and he responded, very seriously: "But, my love, what shall we do?" or the Swedish version of that, that is. ;) I have never been called that by any man. Not "Lilla hjärtat". It was so cute. Though we both knew he was kidding. And he's not my darling, either. I had 5-7 DARLINGS on Ward 4... ;)

My vampire. A guy. He's nice. We're a very odd pair of friends. We can talk about ANYTHING. Yes, all kinds of stuff and he's only let me down once. And that was probably my own doing. I set myself up that time. Still hurts though...

The dream. Last night. Wish I didn't have it. Made me all fuzzy inside again, for the vampire...

OK.

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Hi there...

Happy September! Hope you have a goos one!

Love, Cindarella

Hi.

Hello.

I worked 34 hours during three days at the European Youth Olympic Festival in the Polish house. Now I love a whole new people. The Polish. They are Wonderful... More about that LATER...

Then, on the 27th of July I traveled with the Finns to Denmark with a Bus... I got a special place to sleep, since I am a special person. It didn't help. I ended up at another place with two of the leaders the night between Thursday and Friday and then on Friday we left early. Didn't have to watch mr. Wrong dance with ms. Wrong all night.

On Monday third of August I went to the hospital. HUZZAH! ;) I got to see my Rock and my Fredrick... My Enrico and Hasse... For 22 days. And got a very good friend just by switching rooms twice.

Yep.

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Lily Allen: CD -"It's Not Me, It's You"- Track Eight - on repeat - all day - all night...

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<3

Pictures from a Traditional Wappu in Tampere, Finland...

First, me at Koskenranta on 1st of May 2009...

Then, my Dear Friend Kirppu at Koskenranta on 1st of May 2009...

After that, the day Leo and I met, at Koskenranta on the 1st of May 2009...

Then, Santtu SuperNova and I at Pyhäranta on the 31st of April 2009...

And finally, Santtu SuperNova at Pyhäranta on the 31st of April 2009...

We celebrate Wappu on both 31st of April and 1st of May... ;)

MORE MORE MORE!!! ;)

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OK. Here's the rub. Everyone's found Love. T & M, SN & P (?), K & A... Even I have started "seeing someone"... Anyways, it IS the Summer Of Love!!! And in July, I'm going to the Great Meat Market to Denmark -Fest i Nord- where all the YSA's meet and dance and have fun for five days... BUT! I'm not going there to look for a man... NO NO NO... I never look for a man there anyways and now I kinda have a crush on someone... And I don't want to loose that. NO.

So, I'm going there just to be with my girlies and my friends.

More later...